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Sunday, September 26, 2004
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Saturday, September 18, 2004
1 The LORD is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
2He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
3He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name's sake.
4Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
5You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
6Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell [1] in the house of the LORD
Forever.
Posted at 07:00 am by suzzanne
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Wednesday, September 08, 2004
this place has broken my american heart
Conroe High School, the most depressing place. Everyone is a charlatan. Tomorrow I shall read my lines. I have an inability to be positive about this year. If anyone has any advice that will actually work, please lend a helping hand. It feels like their is a demon inside of me not allowing me to look on the bright side. "Make the most of it." Make the most of what? People being eternal impostors. The light in my life seems to have been watered down with fierce hatred. I have found no desire to be around people, mostly because, I don't trust them. Oh what a futile world we live in.
Posted at 02:43 pm by suzzanne
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Sunday, September 05, 2004
away from grace....in through calm
Well hello. Caitlin baby girl, this one is for you. haha well life has been pretty interesting. This weekend has been really awesome. Life has been pretty busy and pretty gay. I am getting frustrated with all of my peers. Also, I am feeling more inferior to this place. Every single day I realize how much I do not fit in anywhere here. I guess thats good? I don't know. It seems like I have to have known these people for like my whole life, and then maybe i can fit in. I wish I was a sophmore this year because I love every single person in that grade. Or even a freshman, I love all of those guys. Unfortunately I practically loathe all of my peers. I know I shouldn't, but it's hard when they make you feel stupid for not doing stupid stuff. It's hard not to feel inferior to a bunch of people who are consumed with school spirit. Unfortunately, I was born with a lack of enthusiasm for high school. If I were at UT, I would be one crazy mofo with a bootyload of school spirit. But that is far away. Dang and there is one thing that I completely loathe. People who can get away with murder. We live in such a small town, that all of the stupid bad kids get whatever the crap they want because their parents know important people. I think I hate that more than anything. Yeah. Well, Mike preached today on not being 'normal' like the world. I need to stop hating everyone. It's one of the sins that continually consumes me. Bleh. I bought a fat little notebook to write down my prayers and just stuff about my day that interested me or stuff that i want to vent about. Hopefully that will release some of it. Well everything else is awesome. Good night.
Posted at 09:48 pm by suzzanne
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Monday, August 23, 2004
Buddy and Leslie I miss you a lot and I wish I could be there with you right now.
Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Things do not change. We change.
Henry David Thoreau
Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.
Jane Austen
Painting is just another way of keeping a diary.
Pablo Picasso
I shut my eyes in order to see.
Paul Gauguin
I adore Piebald.
long nights, hard times
everything that makes you feel tired
i think i gotta get away from you
long nights, hard times
everything that makes you feel tired
thats why i gotta get away from you
got somethin to say
you might not like how it sounds, i dont care
ive gotta get outta here
you look like youre disguised
youre just a monkey in a monkey suit
no you know how i feel
its just time, or its the wrong time
you can deal with me, i cant deal with you
now its justified for both of us
oh yeah!
long nights, hard times
everything that makes you feel tired
thats why i gotta get away from you
just one more thing...can you tell me something that i havent heard
i wanna hear how it sounds
what was that? that you said? you cant think of anything
well think harder, oh yeah
tell me a secret or two
speak up dear, my hearings not so good
shouldnt call you dear, thats a good one
the best and worst secret you ever yelled at me, oh yeah
long nights, hard times,
everything that makes you feel tired
thats why i gotta get away from you
ive been around long enough
life is what happens while we're making plans
i cant write another one, yeah
our age of miracles has passed
long nights, hard times
everything that makes you feel tired
thats why i gotta get away from you
long nights, hard times
gotta get away from you.
you you, yeah.
Posted at 04:10 pm by suzzanne
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Saturday, August 14, 2004
You're an injury, and I am unholy.
Yo yo. Dang I should be working on my journals right now. Oh well.
Well the other day was crazy. I am thankful that I never have to try to get a parking sticker again. Seeing many of those unfriendly faces made me realize how exciting it is to only have one more year in this place. It's been pretty nice, but after this year, it's over baby. I guess that is what I am excited about. But i can't be too excited about it, because I will miss all of the good times before it ends. I seriously need to work on not abhoring people though. I really don't give a large nugget of poop whether i see half of these people again, but I guess I still have to be civil. Pray for my soul on that one. Seeing some of those people who think they are so freaking awesome made me want to blow serious chunks. They just mosied on up to the front of the line, after some people had been there for like 5 hours (like me). Oh well. To each his own. But if a bird excreted on their heads, it would help the non freaking awesome people feel better. Yes. Well Christi has decided to stop her blog. I think we will all kind of stop sometime. I am going to try to avoid the internet as much as possible this year. It takes up too much of my time. Plus, I am addicted, so that doesn't help.
Well I love you all. I also love these photographs. Please take a gander.
Posted at 07:26 pm by suzzanne
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Where have all the merrymakers gone?
Well hello there. I am officially not changing any of my classes. Looks like this year, I will be taking Environmental Science AP, Art AP, Psychology AP/DC, Biology AP, Government/Ecomonics AP, Calculus AB AP and last but not least English AP. I had a lovely chat with Mrs. Lilley not too long ago because I was faced with two choices.
Choice 1. Dropping Art AP and getting Early Release
Choice 2. Dropping Biology AP and having a fat hole in my schedule.
So she advised me to try out this schedule for a few weeks, and if it got too stressful, then to drop whatever class I decided.
I don't think I have ever been so freaked out about schedule changes in my life. I think it would be different if my counselor didn't hold ill feelings toward me, but well, she does. I will probably end up like that guy in Orange County. Oh well. All I know is that Mrs. Lilley is so awesome. I don't know what I would do without her at all.
Well on another note, senior parking sticker retrieval is tomorrow morning. First come first serve. The early bird gets the worm. And you know what, I want that worm bad. Seriously. Watch yourself. I warned you.
Well church and the girls' sleepover thing is tonight. It's the last Wednesday of the summer and that means that Buddy and Leslie are going away soon. All I have to say is, YOU BETTER COME VISIT A LOT. Yep. Well I love you all dearly and hope your day is splendid.
Posted at 03:28 pm by suzzanne
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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
i'd rather die in love than stay alive numb.
I really like this picture. I hope you do as well. I love you.
Posted at 08:49 pm by suzzanne
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Sunday, August 08, 2004
i'm dead on the surface, but i am screaming underneath...
-The Stand In-
by: Caryn Drexyl
-Never Give In-
by: Dave Kinsey
Posted at 05:37 pm by suzzanne
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Thursday, August 05, 2004
I never thought tonight could ever be this close to me.
by:
Death Cab for Cutie
I roll the window down and then begin to breathe in
the darkest country road and the strong scent of evergreen
from the passenger seat as you are driving me home
Then looking upwards I strained my eyes and try to
tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites
from the passenger seat as you are driving me home
Do they collide? I ask and you smile.
With my feet on the dash, the world doesn't matter.
When you feel embarrassed then I'll be your pride
When you need directions then I'll be the guide for all time for all time...
Wow, I love listening to this song when I am driving. Today was a splendid day thanks to the efforts of many. Seriously, how do I have friends like you? I don't know, I am glad I do though. Well I am going to be gone for the next two days because of my cousin's wedding. I am a little apprehensive to what is in store, but Pentacostal weddings always seem to be pretty 'tipsy' eh? Yeah, well I am definitely excited to see my family and hang out with them more. I still cannot grasp the fact that my cousin is getting married. I hope I don't get too teary eyed. Oh well. This is life.
Well i recieved the Cure's Greatest hits cd for my day of birth and I am quite in love with it. It takes approximately four hours to reach Dallas, so I will probably be listening to cds instead of reading Crime and Punishment. Don't get me wrong though, Raskolnikov keeps me on the edge of my seat. THE EDGE. Yeah I don't know. Well, I love you Leslie Newman and everyone else. God bless.
Posted at 07:55 pm by suzzanne
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